Having Half of Someone Breaks Your Whole Heart

An "almost boyfriend" is worse than no boyfriend at all. But Taylor, isn't it better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all? Yes, but hear me out. We all know those almost relationships. You've probably had one, too. That thing where you have everything you deserve from a boy but the title. You have an arm around you, someone to tell everything to, to sing at the top of your lungs with, to laugh with... but you don't have a boyfriend. He's not ready, or he's not looking for a girlfriend, and let me tell you, girl -- excuse my language, but those reasons are total bullshit. Let me say that I believe in the talking phase of a relationship. It's important to get to know each other before you commit to a relationship, but that's not the same as being noncommittal. That's not the same as saying, "I just want to have fun with you right now." You can't force a boy into a relationship, and don't even try it. That is so unfair to him -- as much as he should respect you, you should do the same for him. But you deserve to not waste your time. You deserve the decency of being taken out on dates and having someone not be afraid to say, "I want to be with you." When you are just 'having fun' with him, you only have half of him and he sees himself as single. If he goes and hangs out with someone else, you can't be upset because, hey, he never committed to you.

You are all in and he's free to go whenever he wants. When and if he does leave, you're going to be left with a broken heart. He will be gone and all you'll have are memories of ice cream dates, late nights doing donuts on frozen roads with the radio blasting, falling asleep to the sound of his snoring, and shagging around the living room, you with two left feet made worse from alcohol, and him twirling you effortlessly. And you'll remember how beautiful he made you feel, how it felt to have someone be there for you, and maybe even the way you laughed off how he drunkenly whispered those three words to you on his birthday. And how you replied with four. You'll wonder where he went and you'll tear up when that one song comes on the radio and you'll get mad and get over him and then miss him all over again. All because you gave him your whole heart and he only gave you half of his.

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