3.29.2016

How Do You Want to be Remembered?

One hundred years from now, what do you want people to think of when they hear your name? What stories do you want your grandchildren to be told about you?

I want to be remembered as a girl who had a good heart, who was soft but strong. Someone who was honest and straightforward and unapologetic for who I am. Someone who was always up for coffee with a friend and who would be there in a moment's notice to do anything for anyone. I want to be known as a person who was compassionate and kind, the kind of person you think of and say, "I saw Jesus in her." I want to have fire in my soul and grace in my heart, a go-getter, reliable, someone who always got the job done. I want to be remembered as a girl who wasn't afraid to love and who loved with all my heart when I did, despite being afraid of not being loved back. I want to be remembered as a supportive sister, a role model, a loving, respectful daughter, and one day as an incredible wife and mother. I pray that I will be known as someone who led others towards Christ, who always exemplified the love of Jesus, and constantly worked on her faith and relationship with God. I want to be remembered as a lover of photographs and quotes, of beagles and agriculture and Charleston. Of my friends and family and Jesus and life in general.

Whether you go on to have your name in history books or not, you will leave behind a legacy. What do you want yours to look like?


3.06.2016

Having Half of Someone Breaks Your Whole Heart

An "almost boyfriend" is worse than no boyfriend at all. But Taylor, isn't it better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all? Yes, but hear me out. We all know those almost relationships. You've probably had one, too. That thing where you have everything you deserve from a boy but the title. You have an arm around you, someone to tell everything to, to sing at the top of your lungs with, to laugh with... but you don't have a boyfriend. He's not ready, or he's not looking for a girlfriend, and let me tell you, girl -- excuse my language, but those reasons are total bullshit. Let me say that I believe in the talking phase of a relationship. It's important to get to know each other before you commit to a relationship, but that's not the same as being noncommittal. That's not the same as saying, "I just want to have fun with you right now." You can't force a boy into a relationship, and don't even try it. That is so unfair to him -- as much as he should respect you, you should do the same for him. But you deserve to not waste your time. You deserve the decency of being taken out on dates and having someone not be afraid to say, "I want to be with you." When you are just 'having fun' with him, you only have half of him and he sees himself as single. If he goes and hangs out with someone else, you can't be upset because, hey, he never committed to you.

You are all in and he's free to go whenever he wants. When and if he does leave, you're going to be left with a broken heart. He will be gone and all you'll have are memories of ice cream dates, late nights doing donuts on frozen roads with the radio blasting, falling asleep to the sound of his snoring, and shagging around the living room, you with two left feet made worse from alcohol, and him twirling you effortlessly. And you'll remember how beautiful he made you feel, how it felt to have someone be there for you, and maybe even the way you laughed off how he drunkenly whispered those three words to you on his birthday. And how you replied with four. You'll wonder where he went and you'll tear up when that one song comes on the radio and you'll get mad and get over him and then miss him all over again. All because you gave him your whole heart and he only gave you half of his.